Letter to Bappa

Dear Lord,

              Until now, i.e. 7th September 2016, as compared to the previous year, as many great things as much as shocking ones have happened. On an academic front, I would say, I fared surprisingly well with 9+ points scored in both the semesters. But the dilemma of doing MBA, MS, MTech still prevails and it sucks big time. MTech seems distant as Mechanical Engineering doesn't intrigue me anymore and I'm quite sure to discontinue the field, which leaves me two options MS or MBA. In the duel, the latter wins as it gives me an opportunity to stay here and pursue further education but I am hardly aware of any of the fields in it and I've become more uninterested in any and every affair of my life. It seems I could not care less. With all the emotional turbulence happening in the last two months, the cold war between the girls, the realization of a lot of new things on relationships and stuff, and this strengthening of bond between the four + one of us which is ultimately gonna not stand the test of time as distance is gonna break it apart in the coming year (which I surely don't want to happen) which makes anyone emotionally unavailable in person for me, I think, being a loner as I was in the third year was very, I can say, comforting. Emotional disturbance wavers your mind like a particle in a tempest, you know what to do and what not to but your mind doesn't let you do what you are supposed to and keeps pitying itself a lot. But this new experience of togetherness is ephemerally rewarding and likable for sure and I would do everything in my hand to preserve this.

               I have learned a lot from my newly formed sister and two other bros and from TFIOS that life can never be as punishing as theirs and that moving on is essential. Also, even if you have no heart in what you are doing, still you ought to do it anyway because your karma has got you to study that aspect, that facet, that discipline of knowledge and any knowledge should be accepted warmly however bitter it maybe and not by adulating nescience. All this is easier said than done but anyways, I have got to follow this and maybe, this letter which I am writing is a message of yours to make me realize these things.

           An earnest request which I ask you to fulfil and I would retrospect upon this next year, the same time is,

1. Don't let the gang lose on anyone in any case and let this bond become more and more stronger than weaker.
2. Let my FYP be completed on a sufficiently good or average level without much trouble.
3. Let the CAT/ MBA CET which I'm planning to give be rewarding and get me an admit into a good B-School if I am really worth it. Else fail me in the first attempt itself which I will take as a sign to not continue my aspiration of being an MBA and suggest some alternative education which I should take.
4. Let the gang get what they want and all be happy but be in constant touch.
5. Let all the family problems be resolved and may everyone do well. 

          I know it is a lot to ask and also you've kept me academically focused; but this time, I request you to keep us all emotionally stable and sane and let that equanimity and maturity develop amongst us all; especially me, since I am quite a tyro at all this. I will reply how have things turned out and how you've did the best you can to help me in the year 2016-17 after Ganesh Chaturthi of 2017. Till then, I would say, Ganpati Bappa Moraya, Pudhchya Varshi Lavkar Yaa.